Tomorrow, I'll be going back to work. I am both happy and sad. Happy to go back and sad to leave my kids behind. Even before I went on maternity leave, I already knew that one day, I'll face this reality. I am a working mom and I have to live with it.
I am grateful that I came across a job that is fulfilling for me and at the same time provides me a very good creative environment where I can grow, learn and make meaningful friendships. But I'll always have that longing to be with my kids, 24/7.
I am not complaining. I am blessed with very loving in-laws whom I'm certain would look after my children every time I leave for work. But sometimes, the guilt just won't go away, even if I consider myself a hands-on mom. And I believe that I've done what I should do in the best way I know how, given the kind of circumstances I'm in. On times like these, I just count my blessings. And every time I'm on a guilt trip, I console myself by the fact that someone loves my children more than I do. And He watches over them unceasingly. And with that realization, my heart rests.
To S and R, thank you for almost 4 months of being together. You were my sun and rain on moments of darkness and drought. As Mama goes back to work again, let me extend my sincerest gratitude for those times that we've been together... Thank you for your company. I'll miss you both terribly.
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ReplyDeleteExactly how I felt when I went back to work ...God bless our children always and cheers to us working moms!
ReplyDeleteThanks Pinky! Sana ma-project ko rin yung Cebu. :-)
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